15 Summers {Unlearning}

 

15 summers I came home too late 

Flying nowhere fast 

Through unnamed gates

Moving backwards

Despite the pace 

Chilly sunshine here

Histories grey 

 

I’m missing

(far from what I’m yet to know)

I’m missing

(15 felt so long ago)

I’m missing

(here too long and I still don’t know)

I’m missing

(what had came before) 

 

15 summers it took to me to know 

Mind over matter 

I was hurt before 

Threatening passages 

My gifts are replete 

Building bridges here 

But I can’t feel my feet 

 

I’m missing

(far from what I’m yet to know)

I’m missing

(15 felt so long ago)

I’m missing

(here too long and I still don’t know)

I’m missing

(what had came before) 

 

Had Enough {Unlearning}

 

I don’t have time anymore

I don’t feel life anymore

 

The weight is heavy 

It forms every sound

My spirit needs carrying

But no one’s around

The plan is clear

But hard to see

I’m told to visualize 

This bubble’s blinding 

 

I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough

It gets too hard

I’ve had enough

 

I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough

It gets too hard

I’ve had enough

 

I don’t have life anymore

I don’t feel time anymore

 

Lost by myself 

Alone at sea

A product of choice

Thoughts that control me

Unto them

They hold the key

They’re playing mind games

I fall at their feet

 

I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough

It gets too hard

I’ve had enough

 

I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough

It gets too hard

I’ve had enough

 

[Chima Anya]

I’m not going to say too much but

I do want to say this

I want to say this…

I’ve had enough, it’s bad enough 

All this random stuff is adding up

It seems like all of it’s attacking us

I’ve had enough the camel’s back is now cracking up

From ash to dust, past the point of caring now, that’s enough

You can say I’m not strong enough or I don’t want it much

Either way this thing has gone long enough 

Imma keep it short and sweet, always peace, ain’t no beef

But I’ve got to leave, the madness got to cease yeah 

 

I’ve had enough 

I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough

I’ve had enough

 

Shit To Do {Unlearning}

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

 

Longing for the moment when he swoops in and saves me from myself

Welcomed distractions I don’t deal with my own greatness too well

They told us to want

They told us to need

That’s what we’re here for

Why are we feening and why are we pleasing when

We’re the creators

 

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

 

Searching for desire in faces that don’t care about me

The promise of fucking and I start behaving so desperately

They told us to allure 

They told us be demure 

That’s what we’re here for

If we can’t ask for what we want then I guess that’s what

They gave us fingers for

 

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

 

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

I’m tired of waiting for you

I’m tired of waiting for you

When I’ve got shit to do

 

Welcomed distractions I don’t deal with my own greatness too well